I have had many, many times when jobs fall through for reasons that are outside of my control. There haven't been many times though when I've actively said no to a job and until last week, there had never been a time where I turned down a good paying job from a respectable agency because of ethical concerns.
That's right. I left money on the table because I didn't feel comfortable using my skill set to promote this particular client's product. It was an extremely difficult decision. August is traditionally a slow month for me so when work comes along, and it's paying reasonable rates, it's really hard to say no. In this case however, I just couldn't bring myself to work for this client. Without naming names (and please don't try to guess), I will say that this client promotes a particular product that I just don't fully support. I don't think it's good for people, the environment, our country or our future.
The reason I don't want to identify this client is because the people who work for their agency of record are good people whom I like and want to continue to work with. I don't want my ethical dilemma to reflect negatively on the agency's business. This is an important point because I greatly value relationships and as a freelancer and small business owner it's paramount that I maintain good working relationships.
The agency understood my position and even respected my decision. Which is pretty amazing when you think about it. There they were, offering me good money to shoot a job that countless other photographers would probably jump at. And here I am saying no to a job that didn't even require any negotiation. Here's the budget, here's the shot list, it's yours if you want it.
And, here's the kicker. The actual assignment sounded interesting to me. I think it would have been a lot of fun to shoot, but I just couldn't reconcile my feelings about how the images would be used. I thought long and hard about this assignment, but ultimately I had to turn it down. I like to think that I'm sticking to my ethical code and that I'm above selling out, but I wonder how the decision would have been different if the fee for the job could have been "life changing" for me and my family. Where do you draw the line and how do you balance supporting your family and maintaining a good conscience? There is a lot of gray area and only you can make the decision.
For now though, I feel good about not taking the job. Do I wish I was making money right now? Yes, but there are other jobs out there. Just to prove my point, literally within one hour of deciding to turn down this job I received an email from another agency asking me to bid on a much better job for a client that I can really pour all my energy into. Now just keep your fingers crossed that I win the bid.